Lol, lol, lol, lol, lol, loooooooooool... Stop, otherwise I get the tears...xD Lol, I trying always a rational person to be, what this sometimes very hard seems. You should rather the things from all sides see, and try the best soliution for you to find (but not in any case the, what you for yourself thought have - Keywords: "I was aout to do some stupid things"), you should as nice further live, because you've still more as the half of you life ahead, where then...^_^