- Jan 29, 2012
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[MENTION=40283]Yee199[/MENTION]; Don't really understand you there. I got 2 friends. I failed school miserably. I probably won't get a job unless i'm lucky as hell. I'm a negative person so who would like me? I probably won't ever get a family since i got social phobia.
So seriously... Who would miss me? Why would someone spend money on my funeral when i don't even deserve it?
Also, i'm off to watch tv for an hour so i'll be back later. See you all.
Wow i can really feel you there.
I have Bipolar, Social phobia, and Depression. I got 1 Friend (though i only see him at best once a month), I failed school miserably too ( i kepted dropping out i couldn't handle being there), I was Hospitalized twice because of suicidal issues (one I went all the way to Idaho, I live in Alaska so its pretty far.) I was at those places for about 6 months a piece. I become a nervous wreck If I don't get my meds. And I never had a girl friend and never will because of Social phobia, besides who would want somebody who cant do a thing. I don't expect to last long in the real world. How am expected to go up to somebody and ask for a job, I shake just thinking about, let alone maintaining it. Its like being on the line between of were you are expected to make it yourself and were people who are mentally retarded are and aren't expected to. I often wish i was born mentally retarded But that is a selfish wish.
So no im not afraid of dying. I dang near welcome it. I just wish I could somehow do some good for people before I go. When im gone if it was my choice I would not want a funeral. But I somehow know my parents wont throw me in the garbage can.
Anyway sorry i ranted on abit.