47388 ah ok then thats understandable, we all scared of losing friends but thats how life is people come and go and as for depression you should try to find that something in life which makes you happy most might be a place, preson or thing, im only 21 and i have seen way too much in life thing i wish to forget but their not fears. my fear is fans, when at school grade 2, one came crashing down right near me so ever snice i advoid rooms with fans