Hello Again~ renano's Current Whereabouts

[Ghost Kitty~]

Too much to read @_@ Ahh well.. why not just respond x3

Missed you tons as well~ And is it just me or do i sense something else behind you liking guys that cry

I guess i did... >< Well... mostly just the last two or three months of depression... but its really messing with my mind so im not sure if i would understand myself more... or if i should trust that newfound knowledge...

Move forward... ill try... cant seem to stop myself from trying to drag the past along though...

 

[renano]

Lol~

I try to reply. ^^;;

Once a person is in college or working full-time, depression is practically waiting at your door step to eat away piece by piece your very existence.

There's no real solution since causes of depression differ, but having a sane mind and finding time for yourself to contemplate works.

/me gives Sam a hug

 

[aexiel]

renano is a sadist? well that's my assumption from liking guys that cry and teasing the guys in bishoujo games. shishishi

with what I read, renano has a sweetness scale of 350% from a base of 100. Let's go diabetes!

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Yeah i know~

Well... this one is because i feel like someone i thought close is drifting away... and it isnt likely but theres a chance she might disappear completely?... She already had one disappearance... School and work isnt really any reason for me to get into any major depression... i value friends much more... Im pretty much aware that all those thoughts that the depression brought up arent likely to be... completely true... but i just cant stop...

/me huggles ojou sama back~

@mustache Hmm yes ojou sama is quite the sadist ;p

 

[aexiel]

there you go again with your depression, you should understand that friends will always come and go, but the bonds you forged will always be there

 

[Decalcomania]

[MENTION=25364]Decalcomania[/MENTION] ;

Nero! My sweetest and most cherished person!

Glad you're still here even among all your real life junk~

I don't really mind if we live together, but there's only one bed.

You guys decide what to do. xD

Haha, I've been avoided Anime Sharing at the same time as well.

4 people in one bed, not bad. I wouldn't mind it, but I could sleep on the floor.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

She isnt someone im likely to hear from again if she disappears... >< Whats the use of a bond if there isnt a person behind it?...

 

[renano]

@ Sam

Hmm... perhaps you're over-thinking it.

If you really care or feel attached, then try to seek that person or just live on with the memories you both shared.

@ Nero

Truth be told, I like sleeping on the floor more than in the bed. ^^;

It would be nice to share household duties.

@ axiel

I am sadistic. Love to tease and see others in pain. xD

However, I'm still female. Motherly instincts just pop up. Haha~

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

I know im overthinking it... Ive been aware of that and its the reason why i cant trust myself...

I doubt ill be able to find her even though it would be nice to meet... Shes still around for now... i hope...

 

[aexiel]

a strong bond will pull you back together. that is what I learned from anime anyway. well that is unless they're dead.

 

[Decalcomania]

[MENTION=18465]renano[/MENTION] ; Oh yes. Floors are most comfortable for sleeping on.

Household duties... I remember having a conversation with a friend about having a fetish for sponges and just putting soap and rinsing it with water would make this person moan. It was a weird conversation, but I had a laugh when he said that he couldn't wait to get to his house and wet his sponge.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm... ive had other random little friendships where i was close to the other person... and yet now theyre fairly... broken?... >< Well its not that were not friends but i no longer have anything to really talk about even if i did talk with them... no longer know them as well as i used to... No longer feels natural to talk... and i think some of them have found me annoying or enough negativity in continuing to talk with me so they barely even say anything other than hello to me even when i do talk with them... i suppose this current friendship that im being depressed over is stronger and in very different circumstances as i knew those other people offline but this is purely online... quite the odd reason for this friendship as well... shes quite very quiet so i have no idea what she thinks most of the time...

 

[aexiel]

then you should really narrow down what you consider friends or nakama. with your experience, the people you call friends were only more like acquaintances since the bond formed isn't mutual.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm... well im aware that its mostly the weaker friendships where they abandoned me... there are some which are still as strong as always even though i hadnt talked to that person in years... a bit awkward at the start but completely fine now~ I was hoping that it would be possible to form stronger bonds with those certain people but i wasnt someone which they considered important i suppose?...

 

[aexiel]

philosophically, there are friends whose bonds are strong the moment you meet, while with others the bonds are weak even through long periods. There is a belief that all the people you meet are predestined and that all friends that you were meant to have will stay with you.

On another belief, true friendship transcends life cycles and are thus brought forth even to the present. Let life go as it should, do not fret the little things

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Im not going to abandon friends just because it was predetermined that i would lose them at some point... Perhaps the only way to keep a certain friend is to try hard... if i followed that philosophy and just said certain things werent meant to be then those would be lost...

 

[renano]

@ Sam

It may sound rude, but it feels like you are the one who is 'attached' or have many lingering feelings from the past.

The people who you came to know may still remember your name, but they probably have other people that they also may have 'formed stronger bonds'.

@ Nero

Oh, you like the floors too~ I rarely find someone likes to sleep on them.

Sponge fetish. I heard of people liking sponge baths, but I'm not sure about the moaning part.

/me is curious to try


Bye-bye for now everyone~

/me gives Sam, Nero, and aexiel apple crumb cake and a choice of lemon or peach tea

Take care~

 

[aexiel]

peach tea please.

I prefer sleeping on a cold wooden floor without any cushion than sleeping in a comfy bed.

and sam, renano assessed the situation quite accurately.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm... Its not rude because it may be so... its difficult to forget someone that youre around tons i do believe? So they still know me... Im not the most interesting person and considering how i only aim for balance there are many people who could outdo me... and have... just doesnt feel nice being replaced... but thats inevitable considering my personality... I wonder if i should forget about these lingering feelings then... but like mustache said... that seems quite accurate...

Goodnights again~
/me nibbles cake and sips peach tea~

 

[aexiel]

then you have the opposite situation with me. I hate being the center of attraction and I just emanate weirdness and spectacle. tch. No one forgets me though I wish they did.

you're not being replaced, just being put aside. then again, they're not your friends if they replace you. in a way they're socialites, as most humans are. they trade one for someone better. its not something you should be depressed about, its natural. if they forget you for being who you are then that's that. think of it as they're not worthy to be your friend.

in regards to the person you don't want to lose, if her departure is certain, won't it be better to spend the remaining time you have left together the best way possible instead of moping around and getting depressed? at least that way, you can't say you had any regrets

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm... im quite odd as well? The last party they invited me to i was climbing around on the tops of trees while they were getting drunk x3

Put aside... ahh well... still doesnt feel nice natural or not...

Her departure isnt certain but theres just an odd chance that it may happen at any time... ><

 

[aexiel]

even so, same advise. XD

that not odd by my standards. I on the other hand spout random information or randomly dance by myself, most often talk to myself. though it only labeled me as a mad genius with no care for grades whatsoever.

 

[nanashi1]

Wow...(but not with the MMO-game mistake)! [MENTION=18465]renano[/MENTION];-san, you've but a very weird viewpoint in your image (In your life).

 

[Decalcomania]

[MENTION=18465]renano[/MENTION] ; I actually sleep in the family room in my house, more like on the floor in front of a giant television. So, I have gotten used to the feeling on sleeping on the floor.

Lol. I have never had a sponge bath before. You must give me one at once, or I will punish you erotically.

 

[aexiel]

a sponge bath isn't really much of a bath. I hate it.