I entirely deserved the tongue lashing Mom gave before breakfast.
"We almost overslept!" She huffed and sighed. "Don't do that again."
"I'm sorry." I was sorry. Mom accepted that I had bound and gagged her for our story time. But when she woke up, she needed to start her day, and I was sound asleep beside her. She basically had to roll on top of me to wake me up!
"I worried that my hands had turned blue behind my back." She shook her head, disappointed. She had begun the rant upon returning from having to rush to the bathroom. She continued it with short snipes while we showered separately and dressed. Now she was in the kitchen staring into the refrigerator. I was half watching a video for school.
The games I'd played with Mrs. Abbey and her daughter, Shannon, had taught me how to tie safe knots. I should have untied Mom before she fell asleep, but I didn't because I thought I had tied good knots. I remembered that Mrs. Lum had complained about leaving her tied. I stayed beside Mom, but waking up in restraints must have rattled her. We both were on edge.
"Okay, I get it. I'll be more careful." I was a little bitter. I cut the video short. I had watched most of it. When I unplugged it from its charger, the small white cube reminded me of the terrible mistake I had made yesterday.
She sighed again. "I'm not wrong, but I shouldn't have barked at you. I know you'll try."
"Like you said, Mom. It's not like I can cure you."
Her demeanor sagged from lecturer to companion sad sack. "It's not like we can afford to go to counseling." She implied the obvious, that I needed help too. She pulled a carton of eggs from the fridge, then followed it with cheese and spinach.
I washed the bundle of spinach while she beat the eggs. Maybe we could get support for our disturbed moods. Ms. Nurhea was a sort of counselor. I suddenly wished I had helped her with Steve and his mom, two days ago. If I had, maybe she would help us for free.
I handed the spun bowl of healthy leaves to Mom just in time for her to cook the omelets. I remembered, Ms. Nurhea had asked me to keep an eye on Steve during school, but I missed class yesterday morning when he had said terrible things to Trish. I texted the attractive social worker about the event. If she reacted positively, I would then ask if she might help Mom and I.
The doorbell rang. I opened the door to find Jude standing sullen. "Are you gonna be a liar again today?"
"Invite him in, Billy." Mom had eavesdropped. "This, I've got to hear."
The last thing I needed was this brat to ruin my morning. I had wanted this day to go so much better than yesterday. No. I needed it to. I fumed silently and made room for Jude to enter. "It was just a dumb thing, Mom." I tried to set the context.
"You're dumb." The boy stuck his tongue out at me, scurried inside, and latched on Mom's leg. She was wearing housework jeans. "Billy said I could play with you, but he tricked me, and Daddy took me home."
"Well, that is rather deceptive." Mom flipped the omelet expertly. She realized that my trick had been meant to rid of Mr. Allister. "What do you have to say for yourself?" She asked me.
"Aw, Mom. I didn't think he'd get all upset." I didn't know what to say, actually. "I mean, I didn't say when he could play with you." It was the lamest excuse. Of course anyone would assume I meant, right then yesterday afternoon.
"It's not fair." Jude held on to Mom's leg.
Mom set the finished omelet on a plate. "Would you like some breakfast?"
"No, Ma-am." He pouted. "Dad goes to work early, and I ate a steak and eggs already."
My mouth salivated at the thought of having steak for breakfast.
She cut the omelet in two. "Then it's only fair that you play with me today, Jude." Mom slide one half onto another plate and offered it to me.
"Oh GOODIE!!" He jumped up and down!
"But, Mom, I was going to take care of you all day!" I stared at my breakfast but didn't reach for it. "I can't do that with-" How could I repeat our story game with a kid in the apartment?
"Hush." She asserted, pushing the plate into my hands. "I was going to excuse you from school, but I think Jude may be a blessing in disguise."
"What? How?" I didn't care if the steaming omelet froze over. My appetite drained away, replaced with fear of losing to the brat.
Mom went to the counter, and Jude took the seat next to her. I had to go around and sit opposite of them. I set the plate down with an annoyed clatter. She pushed a fork and knife and paper towel at me. "Billy, you can't skip school if there's any chance I won't need you here."
"I don't understand." I pouted and forked my egg with frustration.
"It'd be pretty obvious if you weren't being selfish." She accused gently. She asked Jude. "Do you like to help your father with chores around your home?"
"I guess, but only when Daddy does them with me." Jude answered warily.
"Billy, Jude may be just the thing to keep me focused today. I'll sit for him until his father returns, and if I get in a bad way again, I will text you."
"Are we just gonna work?" Jude wasn't the dimmest bulb in the complex. "I want to play."
"I'll want to play too." Mom gave him a sweet smile.
I gulped, imagining the worst. What Jude wanted to play with were Mom's beautiful boobs. There were no good choices. Jude would be in our home for the day, and Mom would certainly overrule my assertions to the contrary because I had made a promise. Either I rebelled and skipped school to prevent what I imagined or took it on the chin.
I had let down Mom a couple times recently, wrecking her trust by drugging Mr. Gorgev's food, and I had acted like a brat worse than Jude about her initiative with Mr. Crocle.
I was also pretty sure that Meals on Heels clients, who wanted me to impregnate them, weighed on her as well. She had spent hours alone in Tanya's cab after serving Miss Louis. I imagined her brooding in it. And there was something else ... something about Tara and Mrs. Cherkle that grated her yesterday. Helping Mom yesterday was the first good thing I may have done for her in what seemed like a very long time.
"I'll keep my watch close, Mom." I told her with all the sullenness of a thirteen year old boy. I would skip P.E. to make sure I didn't miss a text. "I won't let you down again, but you gotta promise to let Mr. Allister take Jude home." By which I meant, don't entertain his father like she had yesterday.
I dug into my omelet, appetite returning.
"Thank you, Billy." Mom sounded considerably relieved.
Jude sat unimpressed in his seat, gripping Mom's left arm. He reflected all of my sullenness with a victory smirk.
By the time I got halfway to school, I was feeling better. Mom was right. Taking care of a silly little boy for the day was about the farthest thing from having to deal with lingering self-doubt and guilt. I had made the right choice.
Except I couldn't shake the image of him sucking on Mom's boobs. I told myself, that's what 'taking it on the chin' meant, and I deserved it. At the time I didn't consider it a blessing, but that jealousy distracted my thoughts of Tuesday night's horror as effectively as Jude kept Mom from brooding.
The morning's air was crisp and I shivered. Summer was taking on aspects of autumn. Morning traffic hadn't changed a bit. My watch buzzed. Had Mom texted already?
It was Ms. Nurhea. "Thank you for letting me know, Billy. I'll meet with the principal today. I can get permission to see you, if you want to discuss it privately between you and I. I'm sorry I didn't text you after the session with Steve."
I accepted her offer to talk and resumed walking. I thought about ways to convince her to help Mom and I.
I reached school quite early. I hadn't checked the time when I left home. I just wanted to escape further nonsense over Jude. I found myself knocking on Mrs. Lum's office door.
"Oh, hello Billy. It's early." She was already wearing sweats. I guess she worked out in the morning. "To what do I owe the pleasure of your company?" She smiled.
I didn't know why I picked her. I could have gone to my math or English teachers. Maybe it was because her office was closest from the outside. What I did know, all of a sudden was, I needed to be with someone. Images of me fucking- No, raping Ms. Tidden, leaped into my head. In those images I was angry with her, because her husband had attacked Mom! I imagined venting my rage inside the unattractive, poor woman.
What I saw, of course was Mrs. Lum. "Billy?" My face must have reflected the emotion welling inside of me.
What I felt was a swelling desire to fuck! Not 'make babies', but just drill my hard cock into a vulnerable pussy. And my dick was very hard! Why hadn't I noticed the iron bar in my pants before arriving at her door? "Billy?" She looked around the grounds. A few students gabbed with each other in far corners of the schoolyard. "Are you here to-" Her eyes darted to my pants and the tent in them. "Oh, my." She gulped. "This is not a good time-"
I raised my palm and pressed it between her breasts. "I-I need-" Without saying more, I pushed the woman into her office. "I mean, y-you may have to stop me." She stepped backwards, allowing me to enter. I took her hand closest to me and applied the most basic of joint locks, a simple twist. I told her, "Stop me, or lock the door." A surge of desire propelled my thoughts and actions. The game I sometimes played with the P.E. teacher did not feel like a game that morning.
"Ow, Billy." Her twisted arm flinched against its locked joints. She looked out the open door then at the clock. Classes wouldn't begin for another half hour. "I've missed you too, but maybe we should wait..."
"I can't." I was barely holding back the dark urges compelling me. "Lock the door or stop me." I demanded again.
"Nooo, don't hurt me." She whined softly. She used her superior skill to slip the arm lock but not completely - no doubt by choice. She gave herself enough freedom to reach the door and shut it. Her free hand grabbed keys from her pocket, and she locked the door. "Billy, you can't keep raping me!" She was very much playing the game, not realizing how close I was to succumbing to an awful urge to take the woman by force. Of course, if I had tried, she would have mopped the floor with me.
I then changed the arm lock to something stronger, bending it behind her and pulling up. I drove her to her desk until her muscular belly bumped the edge. "Lean over, Bitch." I growled, and my free hand took the stapler. It was larger than an office stapler. Something about her job must have required heavy duty staples. "I can stab six staples into you before you could do anything about it." I threatened with an utter falsehood.
"No, please Billy!" Mrs. Lum recoiled. "Can't we talk about this? I thought you might have mended your raping ways. You didn't stalk my house this Monday night." She sounded more disappointed than upset.
"Lean over!" I spanked her covered butt with the side of the stapler. I let go of her arm and pushed the middle of her back.
"Ow! I will, Billy. Don't hurt me with the stapler!" Mrs. Lum bent her strong body over the top of her table. She spread her arms out as if she was hugging it. I quickly unlocked the stapler's base.
SNACK! SNACK! SNACK! - SNACK! SNACK! SNACK!
I sank six large staples down through the sleeves of her sweat shirt, without touching her arms. The metal teeth bit into the desktop, effectively pinning her. She could easily rip herself free, but I counted on her participation. The staples would keep her 'tied' down, for as long as she wanted to pretend.
"NOT THAT!" She cried. "I just bought this shirt!" Actually, it sported more than one permanent grass stain and even a few holes. She was just setting the mood. "Billy, talk about your feelings with me. I can help you!"
"Nobody can help me!" I blurted and immediately choked up. I did need help. That realization frightened me, but I responded with anger. "Gods I'm going to rape you twice this morning - to put two babies in you!" I pulled down her sweatpants and then her sports panties. The latter were black with thick bands. The material was extra thick to absorb more sweat. It was a struggle against the strong bands to open a path to her pussy. I got them down over her ass. With her sturdy panties holding her thighs firmly together, the odor of her reached to my nostrils. She had worked out recently - sweat and salt figured prominently in her crotch's smell.
"NOOO, THERE'S NOT TIME FOR TWO RAPES!" She yelled, fully earnest.
"Help yourself all you want to the bitch's cunt." A voice sang in my head. I had heard the voice before. I had learned to ignore it, but sometimes it knew more about me than I did. "A broken boy should be allowed to break their toys." The voice's part of me had accepted my recent emotional damage, whereas I'd refused to acknowledge that truth. I sustained my denial by unfastening my pants. I pulled them down quick and then my underwear. The angry head of my erect cock sprung out. Instead of tormenting Mrs. Lum with my dick, I simply slotted into her vulva, found the rape spot, and pushed my hard prick into her unprotected cunt.
"OOWW!!" She yelped for real! Even I grunted. She wasn't very wet, and lunging into her fairly dry pussy HURT!
"Raping a cunt is SUPPOSE to hurt!" The voice almost chuckled, and fresh anger filled my chest. I gritted my teeth and pulled half out. That didn't hurt as much, but I readied myself for more pain and slammed it back in.
"Ohhhh!! AAA!!! No, Billy!" Mrs. Lum's hips twisted from the pain in her dry crevice. "It hurts too much!" She could have kicked my shin or even my balls. Either would have stopped me. She chose to play the victim. "STOP! You're going to tear up my insides!"
I kept thrusting, awkwardly and painfully, in and out of her. The friction was intense! I wonder now if I wanted her vagina to punish me. I fucked and winced and blurted out the pain from our grinding genitals. "HHNNNGGGHH!!!"
"AAAAA - AAAA!!" She. "Please STOP it, Billy!" She groaned and lurched. One of the staples tore into a sleeve. "It's too raw!"
"I ow! own your cunt, Mrs. Lum." I squeaked and kept scorching her insides and my shaft with jerking thrusts. "Nngghh!"
"Enjoy the pain." The voice seduced. "You'll cum so hard!"
That sounded very wrong, hurting Mrs. Lum to enhance my orgasm. The voice had tempted me to embrace selfish desires before. Yet my attention drew away from my dick's scouring, to the urge that had unconsciously led me to my P.E. teacher's office. That part of me was like a demon feeding on the pain, and it's arousal was growing fast. The demon grinned at me with Mr. Tidden's eyes. "You're gonna cum quick!" The voice delighted.
"Ooohhh, uuhhgggnnn!!" I groaned.
"Aaahh." Mrs. Lum unexpectedly gasp with relief. Her body was finally excreting the juices that would cool our burning genitals. Because she was older, vaginal lubrication had taken longer to begin. Her moans took on a selfish tone as she began to enjoy what she believed was play rape. "I shouldn't be getting wet!" She cried pretending guilt. "Not for my rapist!"
The change from hurting, to smoother action added a contrasting layer to the sensations building an incredible orgasm in my body. I felt my balls stiffen as they prepared to flood the moistening sheath that had scraped my stiff hose. "This is the BEST RAPE!" I cried out.
A thud against the office door interrupted. "You're too loud!" A woman's voice barked.
"OH my STARS!" Mrs. Lum moved like a wrestler, ripping her sweater through the staples and freeing her cunt from my thrusting cock. At the same time, she pulled up her sweatpants as if I wasn't in the way.
I stumbled back from her, my pants almost tripping me at the thighs. She caught me. "Shhh."
I used the ensuing moment of silence to pull up my pants. My heart thudded in terror. We'd been caught! But before I could zip up, Ms. Laghari's voice came through the heavy door, "That's better." I had been too focused on my impending cum to recognize her first shout.
Mrs. Lum reacted as if she had been pardoned before the guillotine fell. "Oh my stars." She sighed heavily and leaned against her desk. She called out to her colleague, "I'm sorry, Shoona. We're sorry!" The P.E. teacher shook her head at me and whispered. "That's enough for today." She hurried to the door, keys in hand. "Should we talk?" She asked through it's thick wood.
"I probably spoiled your fun, and part of me is sorry, but-"
"No need, Shoona. Thank you. If you were anyone else..." Mrs. Lum unlocked the door and opened it wide enough to face the English teacher. "Were you passing by?"
"Actually no, and, actually, I'm not surprised by what you were doing." She tried to assure, "Anyone occupied by their thoughts wouldn't have heard you two, if they were just passing by. That door is really thick and fits snug into the frame."
"You weren't surprised?" Mrs. Lum sounded surprised.
"Not really." The English teacher's voice turned grave. "I spoke with Billy yesterday, and on a hunch, I came to warn you."
Mrs. Lum opened the door and motioned for Shoona to enter. She closed and locked the door behind them. I remained standing near the desk, not realizing my dick was still hanging through the zipper flap. It was red from friction and wet from Mrs. Lum's juices. Ms. Laghari's glance and resulting hint of smile sent me packing my package out of sight. Zip!
"Billy, what's going on?" Mrs. Lum's tone matched Ms. Lahari's. The holes in her sleeves sprouted shredded polyester.
The English teacher stepped between us. "Nothing awful, Caroline, is my guess, but a conversation is probably in order. Come, Billy, please." She held out an arm for me to enter.
"Damned goodie two shoes!" The voice in my head complained. I had just been about to cum, but her interruption had shut down my balls as fast as flipping a switch. And just as fast, my practice of ignoring the voice kicked in. I went into Ms. Laghari's arm and put one of mine around her waist.
A slight pout crossed Mrs. Lum's lips. "Will you please cut the mystery?"
"Of course," Ms. Laghari dragged me to her colleague and reached her other arm around the frustrated P.E. teacher. "But first." She hugged both of us.
Mrs. Lum and I lifted a hand tentatively to each other. A tenuous, three way hug formed. Ms. Laghari smiled. "Don't bother acting as if you weren't just deep into each other."
"Shoona, you know I am not the most patient person." Mrs. Lum prompted.
"Sorry, that was selfish of me. I feel bad for interrupting, and I don't want it to spoil your playful natures." Her arms tightened around us. "Billy came to me yesterday. He was hurting badly on the inside. Something traumatic happened to him and his mother, a couple nights ago."
"Ms. Androni?" Mrs. Lum's eyes fawned at me with sympathy. "I'm so sorry, Billy. I felt your intensity, but I hoped you were pretending. I wish you had said something."
"Caroline isn't trying to add guilt on you." Ms. Laghari explained. "She cares about your true feelings more than she cares about playing your game."
"Yes, thank you, Shoona. I talk too often like a sour old bitch."
I hugged the P.E. teacher closer to me. "I hurt you, Mrs. Lum-" My soft peter still stung from ravaging her dry pussy. "I'm sorry."
"A little rough play can turn me on." She admitted. "Especially when it's you. I would never obligate you to join me at my house on a Monday night. But because I didn't have your company to enjoy last Monday, I unwisely played with you in my office. This is on me."
"Stop trying to steal the blame, you sillies!" Ms. Laghari shook her head. "People make mistakes because we are often too mistaken about the circumstance of our mistake. What's important for our hearts is to mean well and follow its guidance as best we can.
"Now, Billy," She continued. "I said I was here to warn Caroline and yes, about you. You're hurting, and even the most adult person might take a hurt out on someone else. To your credit, playing your game with Caroline was a noble way to vent frustration without wounding her."
"But I hurt her."
"We started the game so quickly, I hadn't time to prepare myself for intercourse." Mrs. Lum explained.
"I'm sorry." I sniffed.
"I knew what would happen, Billy, and I accepted it." She tightened her arm warmly around me. "I worried about hurting you."
I guessed that she had been just pretending to be hurt, or maybe she was expressing real pain as part of playing. Sex games are really complicated! Up until then I thought that the rape game was as simple as games got.
"I have to confess." Ms. Laghari bit her lip. "I'm now glad I interrupted you two. A - because of this." She patted our huddled backs. "But - B - because if you had cum, Billy, your mind might have considered such intense pleasure as a reward for expressing frustration through sex.
A light bulb flashed in my head. That was the same reason I denied Mom's orgasm after winding her arousal up with our story about the awful night with the Tiddens. More logic connected in my young, spinning head. Those stories had been making me horny too! Except my close love for mother suppressed me from noticing. I would regret cumming when Mom couldn't be allowed to! I wanted to help her, not help myself. The voice in my head predicted, "There'll be times when you enjoy yourself at her expense." I argued internally, "But that would be wrong while her heart's still hurting."
Mrs. Lum chuckled at my vapid gape as I mentally wrestled. "If that's not a sign of self-revelation, I'll burn my teaching credentials."
"I have to go!" I pulled out of our huddle and backed up to the door. A last, awful thought had exploded in my brain. What if Mom's pent up sexual frustration caused her to doing something crazy - WITH JUDE!"
The schools harp rang through the building and over the grounds. Students had five minutes to get to their classes.
"BILLY! What's the matter?" Both teachers blurted.
"Please unlock the door!" I wanted to pound it. Instead I tapped frantically on my watch.
Mrs. Lum approached and she held a key up to its lock. "Can you tell us why?"
I looked up from my hasty text message. My eyes bounced between the women's concerned expressions. "Mom is frustrated too." Except I couldn't say that to them. It wasn't their business to know. Only Tanya and Mrs. McDougal knew about the rape, and I wished upon all the stars that the latter didn't. "I need to go home."
My watch alerted me with Mom's reply. "Everything's fine here, Billy. I'll text every hour. Don't skip school."
"I won't stop you, but I will hold you responsible for the class you miss." Mrs. Lum presented the holes in a sleeve. "And for everything related."
"Billy, don't make decisions in a panic. Unless there's an emergency, you should stick to what you planned today." Ms. Laghari was subtly asking if it was an emergency.
It was! - only it was all in my head. Mom sounded fine in her text. Running home for no reason would work against regaining her trust. I would just have to let my jealousy fueled paranoia simmer and try to distract myself with school matters. "You're right." My head drooped. I apologized and went to my first class.
At the end of History, I checked my texts. Mom had sent, "9:43 am, and all is well. :p
In my second class of the day, science, Kelly sat next to me. She wrote a couple notes when Mr. Yong wasn't looking. "Arturio is a wicked brat, but he's probably my best option." Later she wrote, "He is starting to see that he won't get what he wants from me unless he behaves." When class ended, Kelly chuckled, "You should come over to my place some afternoon and see how he's changed."
I immediately worried about her parents, but then I remembered her mother had instigated Kelly's experimenting with sex. I didn't know anything about her father. "I'd like to see that!" I answered, tongue firmly in my cheek. We parted and I checked my watch.
"10:51am. Jude spilled a little milk. RUSH HOME, AND SAVE ME!!!"
I deserved that. Fortunately, her sarcasm helped me to focus on my math book assignment. Working hard for Ms. Hennifer felt really good,. My grades were suffering from all the distractions in my crazy life.
"Billy, I have a note from the office for you." Ms. Hennifer said, when the 'end of period' harp sounded. I waited at my desk while the class filed out, expecting the note to be a ruse. When the room had cleared I locked the door and went to her.
She told me, "I spoke with your mother this morning. I'm relieved that she recanted her request to punish you." She smile and hugged me. Then she handed me a note. "A Ms. Nurhea?" She hummed with curiosity.
I read it.
"For: Billy Androni.
"Msg: Appointment to meet with Ms. Yvonne Nurhea is approved.
"Time: 2pm.
"Location: Meeting room Malala."
I pocketed the note and sighed. Ms. Hennifer changed her tone appropriately. "Would you like to talk about it?"
I shook my head and stepped up to her, face to face. "I love you." I said and reached my hand into her slacks. My math teacher shuddered. "Billy, we can't do this any more. It's starting to affect me in ways I hadn't anticipated."
No doubt the adult teacher, responsible for at least a hundred kids, had enough stress in her life. That she allowed one of them to cum in her panties, when the idea of getting pregnant utterly repelled her, forced me to rethink our arrangement. I considered her trembling voice and body. I reached fingers behind the waistband of her panties. I remembered they were light green, but that's not what I was checking for.
I had ejaculated into her underwear a day ago. My fingers sank into its gooeyness. I wriggled my middle finger against her quivering slit, swiping a glob along its length. Ms. Hennifer surprised me with an abrupt groan. "OOOOhhhhh!!!" She shook for several seconds, as if she'd orgasmed. "Please, we have to stop this."
Astonished that day old cum had made her suddenly cum, I pulled my hand out and looked at the yellowed goop on my fingers. A rank odor reached my nose. "Did you cum, Ms. Hennifer?"
The woman grimaced and nodded. "I don't want this anymore. It's like I'm being tortured in a whole new way. I'm disgusted with myself."
My prick grew strong in my pants at her confession. The voice in my head returned. "You should dump a fresh load to 'sweeten' what the slut is already carrying."
I shook my head. "Thank you for keeping your promise, Ms Hennifer. You can take a shower now. I'm sorry I had to punish you." Yesterday, she had begged me to fill her panties.
I managed to overrule my frustrated penis once again, and simply kissed Ms. Hennifer on her full lips. "Oh, Billy." She sighed. "I'm such a fool when I'm around you."
"No, Ma-am, you're a wonderful teacher." I wiped my fingers with tissues from her desk. I left quickly, so she could have time to shower and eat lunch.
I checked my watch on the way to my locker. "11:48 am, I'm actually surprised by how good I'm feeling. I hope you're in good spirits too."
Fetching my lunch bag I looked forward to eating outside in the sun. My jealousy was starting to fade. Sure, Jude had probably tried to paw Mom's chest, but I doubted she let him get away with anything worse than that. I could afford to be that magnanimous for her sake.
In the courtyard, I found James eating not by himself, but with Trish and Al. "There you are." Trish said it as if I had made her wait unduly.
"Yay, me." I shrugged and sat next to James. He looked nervous as heck. He already had two classmates bullying him. I surmised the eighth graders had been taunting him while they waited.
"Well, have you heard anything about Steve?" Trish launched into an inquisition. "This fat boy said you went to Steve's house last Tuesday. And what's this about a social worker?"
"Why do you still care?" I fired back. "He treated you like junk, and now what, you want to be his girlfriend?" I was so curious about her behavior, I didn't care what she or Al thought.
Trish rose above my rant. "Someday, when you grow up, you'll understand that friends don't just come and go. You have to allow for shit occasionally." She sneered. "But first you would have to actually get a friend."
"That's telling him, Trish." Al grunted a laugh.
My ears burned a little at her reasoning. I guess she liked Steve quite a bit, just not in an intimate relationship way. No wonder Steve was frustrated - the nuances of friendships were lost on him because his father's broken psyche. Steve simply couldn't understand Trish's perspective.
"I doubt Billy knows anything." Trish snorted. She and Al stood up with their trays and disposed the trash on them.
"I didn't mean to tell them." James frowned.
"I know, James." I started eating. Between mouthfuls, I told him. "So, let's walk from school together, this afternoon." I remembered his request.
"Okay, and I won't talk about eggball." His frown relaxed.
Mom's next message just read, "Same same here. How are you?" I replied that I was fine.
I showed my pass to Mrs. Lum before going to English class.
"A Ms. Nurhea, eh?" She hummed with curiosity. "I hope to see you Monday." She didn't smile, but I knew she was teasing me about my options: P.E. class and late night rape.
I didn't show the note to Ms. Laghari during her class. I sat at my desk and worked as hard as I could for her. I owed so much to her wisdom and loving instruction.
"That's good work, Billy." She reviewed my worksheet and moved to the next student.
I felt good about myself, right up until the harp sounded. A beast climbed on out of the dark recess of my consciousness, as I walked away from English. It's voice asked, "Just what WILL you say to Ms. Nurhea about Mom and us?" I wondered if I could actually tell the social worker that Mom was almost raped, and that I had witnessed the attempt. I didn't really know anything about the social worker. How could I trust her with something that disturbing?
Mom's next message helped. "Billy, I'm serious. Sitting for Jude has been a joy. I wish you were still his age and could spend all day with me."
Even though jealousy lurked in the shadows, I also wished I could spend every day with Mom. But I wasn't a kid any more. I was growing up, despite Trish's assertions. Maybe I could talk to Ms. Nurhea about something as difficult as sexual assault.
"Hello, Billy." Ms. Nurhea greeted me in a small room without windows. It was smaller than my parents' bedroom. She sat on the room's one table. She patted the top of. "Sit with me. Chairs are for fuddy-duds." She smiled.
I sat apart from her, but I welcomed her suggestion. "Hi, Ms. Nurhea, I'm sorry I didn't stay to help Steve. I didn't realize he was so messed up."
"That is the official diagnosis, Billy." She grinned then sighed. "It was my responsibility. There's nothing you should feel guilty about. I fucked up."
"What happened?"
She explained with a growing frown. "My goal was to help Steve open up about how his father treated his mother. I didn't realize what a mine field that was for him. He blew up, saying that his mother deserved what his father did to her. I was so shocked I failed to re-take control of the conversation."
I blurted. "Mr. Dinty was really mean to her, and she's so nice!" I wanted to punch Steve a hundred times!
"I'm sure that was the case. Mr. Dinty has been expressing a lot of sorrow for his wife. He doesn't give details but he admits that he treated her most unfairly."
"What did Mrs. Camden, I mean, Mrs. Dinty say?" She would have been part of the session.
Ms. Nurhea's eyes misted over. "That was the worst part!" She sniffed. "Mable stood up for her son. She told me I was an awful counselor, and she commanded me to leave their house!"
A hundred thousand punches wouldn't be enough for Steve. Poor Mrs. Camden! Of course she stood up for him. She loved him more than anyone and would suffer anything for him!
"I'm so sorry!" I was hugging the sad social worker without a thought to.
She wept on my shoulder, "I'm so glad you wanted to talk, Billy. I'm already a mess, because I could say that only to you, since you originally joined in the sessions. Professional confidentiality restricts me from sharing tough sessions like that. I tried talking to my therapist, but her methods are so clinical!"
I let her cry and kissed her cheek a couple times. "You did what you could, Ms. Nurhea." I again wished I had stayed that day but not for Steve's sake, for hers.
Then, before I could react. Ms. Nurhea slipped off the table and stood on her knees before me. "Please, Billy, I need you to control me like you did the first time. I-I can't trust myself like this." She was begging me to speak the words that would unleash her absolute submission, Wrapped in a Bamboo Snake.
My heart and mind expanded with possibilities. If I took control of her, we could talk about anything, specifically about what happened at the Tiddens. Those events would be easy to discuss while she was in an absolutely receptive state of mind. She wouldn't blame me for anything I said or did. Or I could simply do as she asked, and help her with the feelings troubling her. The first time I controlled her she was grateful for my kindness. But I didn't know if Mom or I could wait a whole weekend, to ask for her help.
The room was built for privacy, and we could probably use it until the faculty went home, long after the last class.
My heart was hurting for Ms. Nurhea, regarding Steve's asinine behavior. I wanted to reassure her, in the most loving ways possible, that she had done her best.
However, by the end of my deliberations, my dick had grown quite hard. To utterly control the attractive woman was a big turn on, especially because she was begging me to control her. The voice in my head was surprisingly reasonable. "You need to release what you've been repressing during all those stories. She won't hold you accountable for anything you do to her."
But what was the right thing to do?
"We almost overslept!" She huffed and sighed. "Don't do that again."
"I'm sorry." I was sorry. Mom accepted that I had bound and gagged her for our story time. But when she woke up, she needed to start her day, and I was sound asleep beside her. She basically had to roll on top of me to wake me up!
"I worried that my hands had turned blue behind my back." She shook her head, disappointed. She had begun the rant upon returning from having to rush to the bathroom. She continued it with short snipes while we showered separately and dressed. Now she was in the kitchen staring into the refrigerator. I was half watching a video for school.
The games I'd played with Mrs. Abbey and her daughter, Shannon, had taught me how to tie safe knots. I should have untied Mom before she fell asleep, but I didn't because I thought I had tied good knots. I remembered that Mrs. Lum had complained about leaving her tied. I stayed beside Mom, but waking up in restraints must have rattled her. We both were on edge.
"Okay, I get it. I'll be more careful." I was a little bitter. I cut the video short. I had watched most of it. When I unplugged it from its charger, the small white cube reminded me of the terrible mistake I had made yesterday.
She sighed again. "I'm not wrong, but I shouldn't have barked at you. I know you'll try."
"Like you said, Mom. It's not like I can cure you."
Her demeanor sagged from lecturer to companion sad sack. "It's not like we can afford to go to counseling." She implied the obvious, that I needed help too. She pulled a carton of eggs from the fridge, then followed it with cheese and spinach.
I washed the bundle of spinach while she beat the eggs. Maybe we could get support for our disturbed moods. Ms. Nurhea was a sort of counselor. I suddenly wished I had helped her with Steve and his mom, two days ago. If I had, maybe she would help us for free.
I handed the spun bowl of healthy leaves to Mom just in time for her to cook the omelets. I remembered, Ms. Nurhea had asked me to keep an eye on Steve during school, but I missed class yesterday morning when he had said terrible things to Trish. I texted the attractive social worker about the event. If she reacted positively, I would then ask if she might help Mom and I.
The doorbell rang. I opened the door to find Jude standing sullen. "Are you gonna be a liar again today?"
"Invite him in, Billy." Mom had eavesdropped. "This, I've got to hear."
The last thing I needed was this brat to ruin my morning. I had wanted this day to go so much better than yesterday. No. I needed it to. I fumed silently and made room for Jude to enter. "It was just a dumb thing, Mom." I tried to set the context.
"You're dumb." The boy stuck his tongue out at me, scurried inside, and latched on Mom's leg. She was wearing housework jeans. "Billy said I could play with you, but he tricked me, and Daddy took me home."
"Well, that is rather deceptive." Mom flipped the omelet expertly. She realized that my trick had been meant to rid of Mr. Allister. "What do you have to say for yourself?" She asked me.
"Aw, Mom. I didn't think he'd get all upset." I didn't know what to say, actually. "I mean, I didn't say when he could play with you." It was the lamest excuse. Of course anyone would assume I meant, right then yesterday afternoon.
"It's not fair." Jude held on to Mom's leg.
Mom set the finished omelet on a plate. "Would you like some breakfast?"
"No, Ma-am." He pouted. "Dad goes to work early, and I ate a steak and eggs already."
My mouth salivated at the thought of having steak for breakfast.
She cut the omelet in two. "Then it's only fair that you play with me today, Jude." Mom slide one half onto another plate and offered it to me.
"Oh GOODIE!!" He jumped up and down!
"But, Mom, I was going to take care of you all day!" I stared at my breakfast but didn't reach for it. "I can't do that with-" How could I repeat our story game with a kid in the apartment?
"Hush." She asserted, pushing the plate into my hands. "I was going to excuse you from school, but I think Jude may be a blessing in disguise."
"What? How?" I didn't care if the steaming omelet froze over. My appetite drained away, replaced with fear of losing to the brat.
Mom went to the counter, and Jude took the seat next to her. I had to go around and sit opposite of them. I set the plate down with an annoyed clatter. She pushed a fork and knife and paper towel at me. "Billy, you can't skip school if there's any chance I won't need you here."
"I don't understand." I pouted and forked my egg with frustration.
"It'd be pretty obvious if you weren't being selfish." She accused gently. She asked Jude. "Do you like to help your father with chores around your home?"
"I guess, but only when Daddy does them with me." Jude answered warily.
"Billy, Jude may be just the thing to keep me focused today. I'll sit for him until his father returns, and if I get in a bad way again, I will text you."
"Are we just gonna work?" Jude wasn't the dimmest bulb in the complex. "I want to play."
"I'll want to play too." Mom gave him a sweet smile.
I gulped, imagining the worst. What Jude wanted to play with were Mom's beautiful boobs. There were no good choices. Jude would be in our home for the day, and Mom would certainly overrule my assertions to the contrary because I had made a promise. Either I rebelled and skipped school to prevent what I imagined or took it on the chin.
I had let down Mom a couple times recently, wrecking her trust by drugging Mr. Gorgev's food, and I had acted like a brat worse than Jude about her initiative with Mr. Crocle.
I was also pretty sure that Meals on Heels clients, who wanted me to impregnate them, weighed on her as well. She had spent hours alone in Tanya's cab after serving Miss Louis. I imagined her brooding in it. And there was something else ... something about Tara and Mrs. Cherkle that grated her yesterday. Helping Mom yesterday was the first good thing I may have done for her in what seemed like a very long time.
"I'll keep my watch close, Mom." I told her with all the sullenness of a thirteen year old boy. I would skip P.E. to make sure I didn't miss a text. "I won't let you down again, but you gotta promise to let Mr. Allister take Jude home." By which I meant, don't entertain his father like she had yesterday.
I dug into my omelet, appetite returning.
"Thank you, Billy." Mom sounded considerably relieved.
Jude sat unimpressed in his seat, gripping Mom's left arm. He reflected all of my sullenness with a victory smirk.
By the time I got halfway to school, I was feeling better. Mom was right. Taking care of a silly little boy for the day was about the farthest thing from having to deal with lingering self-doubt and guilt. I had made the right choice.
Except I couldn't shake the image of him sucking on Mom's boobs. I told myself, that's what 'taking it on the chin' meant, and I deserved it. At the time I didn't consider it a blessing, but that jealousy distracted my thoughts of Tuesday night's horror as effectively as Jude kept Mom from brooding.
The morning's air was crisp and I shivered. Summer was taking on aspects of autumn. Morning traffic hadn't changed a bit. My watch buzzed. Had Mom texted already?
It was Ms. Nurhea. "Thank you for letting me know, Billy. I'll meet with the principal today. I can get permission to see you, if you want to discuss it privately between you and I. I'm sorry I didn't text you after the session with Steve."
I accepted her offer to talk and resumed walking. I thought about ways to convince her to help Mom and I.
I reached school quite early. I hadn't checked the time when I left home. I just wanted to escape further nonsense over Jude. I found myself knocking on Mrs. Lum's office door.
"Oh, hello Billy. It's early." She was already wearing sweats. I guess she worked out in the morning. "To what do I owe the pleasure of your company?" She smiled.
I didn't know why I picked her. I could have gone to my math or English teachers. Maybe it was because her office was closest from the outside. What I did know, all of a sudden was, I needed to be with someone. Images of me fucking- No, raping Ms. Tidden, leaped into my head. In those images I was angry with her, because her husband had attacked Mom! I imagined venting my rage inside the unattractive, poor woman.
What I saw, of course was Mrs. Lum. "Billy?" My face must have reflected the emotion welling inside of me.
What I felt was a swelling desire to fuck! Not 'make babies', but just drill my hard cock into a vulnerable pussy. And my dick was very hard! Why hadn't I noticed the iron bar in my pants before arriving at her door? "Billy?" She looked around the grounds. A few students gabbed with each other in far corners of the schoolyard. "Are you here to-" Her eyes darted to my pants and the tent in them. "Oh, my." She gulped. "This is not a good time-"
I raised my palm and pressed it between her breasts. "I-I need-" Without saying more, I pushed the woman into her office. "I mean, y-you may have to stop me." She stepped backwards, allowing me to enter. I took her hand closest to me and applied the most basic of joint locks, a simple twist. I told her, "Stop me, or lock the door." A surge of desire propelled my thoughts and actions. The game I sometimes played with the P.E. teacher did not feel like a game that morning.
"Ow, Billy." Her twisted arm flinched against its locked joints. She looked out the open door then at the clock. Classes wouldn't begin for another half hour. "I've missed you too, but maybe we should wait..."
"I can't." I was barely holding back the dark urges compelling me. "Lock the door or stop me." I demanded again.
"Nooo, don't hurt me." She whined softly. She used her superior skill to slip the arm lock but not completely - no doubt by choice. She gave herself enough freedom to reach the door and shut it. Her free hand grabbed keys from her pocket, and she locked the door. "Billy, you can't keep raping me!" She was very much playing the game, not realizing how close I was to succumbing to an awful urge to take the woman by force. Of course, if I had tried, she would have mopped the floor with me.
I then changed the arm lock to something stronger, bending it behind her and pulling up. I drove her to her desk until her muscular belly bumped the edge. "Lean over, Bitch." I growled, and my free hand took the stapler. It was larger than an office stapler. Something about her job must have required heavy duty staples. "I can stab six staples into you before you could do anything about it." I threatened with an utter falsehood.
"No, please Billy!" Mrs. Lum recoiled. "Can't we talk about this? I thought you might have mended your raping ways. You didn't stalk my house this Monday night." She sounded more disappointed than upset.
"Lean over!" I spanked her covered butt with the side of the stapler. I let go of her arm and pushed the middle of her back.
"Ow! I will, Billy. Don't hurt me with the stapler!" Mrs. Lum bent her strong body over the top of her table. She spread her arms out as if she was hugging it. I quickly unlocked the stapler's base.
SNACK! SNACK! SNACK! - SNACK! SNACK! SNACK!
I sank six large staples down through the sleeves of her sweat shirt, without touching her arms. The metal teeth bit into the desktop, effectively pinning her. She could easily rip herself free, but I counted on her participation. The staples would keep her 'tied' down, for as long as she wanted to pretend.
"NOT THAT!" She cried. "I just bought this shirt!" Actually, it sported more than one permanent grass stain and even a few holes. She was just setting the mood. "Billy, talk about your feelings with me. I can help you!"
"Nobody can help me!" I blurted and immediately choked up. I did need help. That realization frightened me, but I responded with anger. "Gods I'm going to rape you twice this morning - to put two babies in you!" I pulled down her sweatpants and then her sports panties. The latter were black with thick bands. The material was extra thick to absorb more sweat. It was a struggle against the strong bands to open a path to her pussy. I got them down over her ass. With her sturdy panties holding her thighs firmly together, the odor of her reached to my nostrils. She had worked out recently - sweat and salt figured prominently in her crotch's smell.
"NOOO, THERE'S NOT TIME FOR TWO RAPES!" She yelled, fully earnest.
"Help yourself all you want to the bitch's cunt." A voice sang in my head. I had heard the voice before. I had learned to ignore it, but sometimes it knew more about me than I did. "A broken boy should be allowed to break their toys." The voice's part of me had accepted my recent emotional damage, whereas I'd refused to acknowledge that truth. I sustained my denial by unfastening my pants. I pulled them down quick and then my underwear. The angry head of my erect cock sprung out. Instead of tormenting Mrs. Lum with my dick, I simply slotted into her vulva, found the rape spot, and pushed my hard prick into her unprotected cunt.
"OOWW!!" She yelped for real! Even I grunted. She wasn't very wet, and lunging into her fairly dry pussy HURT!
"Raping a cunt is SUPPOSE to hurt!" The voice almost chuckled, and fresh anger filled my chest. I gritted my teeth and pulled half out. That didn't hurt as much, but I readied myself for more pain and slammed it back in.
"Ohhhh!! AAA!!! No, Billy!" Mrs. Lum's hips twisted from the pain in her dry crevice. "It hurts too much!" She could have kicked my shin or even my balls. Either would have stopped me. She chose to play the victim. "STOP! You're going to tear up my insides!"
I kept thrusting, awkwardly and painfully, in and out of her. The friction was intense! I wonder now if I wanted her vagina to punish me. I fucked and winced and blurted out the pain from our grinding genitals. "HHNNNGGGHH!!!"
"AAAAA - AAAA!!" She. "Please STOP it, Billy!" She groaned and lurched. One of the staples tore into a sleeve. "It's too raw!"
"I ow! own your cunt, Mrs. Lum." I squeaked and kept scorching her insides and my shaft with jerking thrusts. "Nngghh!"
"Enjoy the pain." The voice seduced. "You'll cum so hard!"
That sounded very wrong, hurting Mrs. Lum to enhance my orgasm. The voice had tempted me to embrace selfish desires before. Yet my attention drew away from my dick's scouring, to the urge that had unconsciously led me to my P.E. teacher's office. That part of me was like a demon feeding on the pain, and it's arousal was growing fast. The demon grinned at me with Mr. Tidden's eyes. "You're gonna cum quick!" The voice delighted.
"Ooohhh, uuhhgggnnn!!" I groaned.
"Aaahh." Mrs. Lum unexpectedly gasp with relief. Her body was finally excreting the juices that would cool our burning genitals. Because she was older, vaginal lubrication had taken longer to begin. Her moans took on a selfish tone as she began to enjoy what she believed was play rape. "I shouldn't be getting wet!" She cried pretending guilt. "Not for my rapist!"
The change from hurting, to smoother action added a contrasting layer to the sensations building an incredible orgasm in my body. I felt my balls stiffen as they prepared to flood the moistening sheath that had scraped my stiff hose. "This is the BEST RAPE!" I cried out.
A thud against the office door interrupted. "You're too loud!" A woman's voice barked.
"OH my STARS!" Mrs. Lum moved like a wrestler, ripping her sweater through the staples and freeing her cunt from my thrusting cock. At the same time, she pulled up her sweatpants as if I wasn't in the way.
I stumbled back from her, my pants almost tripping me at the thighs. She caught me. "Shhh."
I used the ensuing moment of silence to pull up my pants. My heart thudded in terror. We'd been caught! But before I could zip up, Ms. Laghari's voice came through the heavy door, "That's better." I had been too focused on my impending cum to recognize her first shout.
Mrs. Lum reacted as if she had been pardoned before the guillotine fell. "Oh my stars." She sighed heavily and leaned against her desk. She called out to her colleague, "I'm sorry, Shoona. We're sorry!" The P.E. teacher shook her head at me and whispered. "That's enough for today." She hurried to the door, keys in hand. "Should we talk?" She asked through it's thick wood.
"I probably spoiled your fun, and part of me is sorry, but-"
"No need, Shoona. Thank you. If you were anyone else..." Mrs. Lum unlocked the door and opened it wide enough to face the English teacher. "Were you passing by?"
"Actually no, and, actually, I'm not surprised by what you were doing." She tried to assure, "Anyone occupied by their thoughts wouldn't have heard you two, if they were just passing by. That door is really thick and fits snug into the frame."
"You weren't surprised?" Mrs. Lum sounded surprised.
"Not really." The English teacher's voice turned grave. "I spoke with Billy yesterday, and on a hunch, I came to warn you."
Mrs. Lum opened the door and motioned for Shoona to enter. She closed and locked the door behind them. I remained standing near the desk, not realizing my dick was still hanging through the zipper flap. It was red from friction and wet from Mrs. Lum's juices. Ms. Laghari's glance and resulting hint of smile sent me packing my package out of sight. Zip!
"Billy, what's going on?" Mrs. Lum's tone matched Ms. Lahari's. The holes in her sleeves sprouted shredded polyester.
The English teacher stepped between us. "Nothing awful, Caroline, is my guess, but a conversation is probably in order. Come, Billy, please." She held out an arm for me to enter.
"Damned goodie two shoes!" The voice in my head complained. I had just been about to cum, but her interruption had shut down my balls as fast as flipping a switch. And just as fast, my practice of ignoring the voice kicked in. I went into Ms. Laghari's arm and put one of mine around her waist.
A slight pout crossed Mrs. Lum's lips. "Will you please cut the mystery?"
"Of course," Ms. Laghari dragged me to her colleague and reached her other arm around the frustrated P.E. teacher. "But first." She hugged both of us.
Mrs. Lum and I lifted a hand tentatively to each other. A tenuous, three way hug formed. Ms. Laghari smiled. "Don't bother acting as if you weren't just deep into each other."
"Shoona, you know I am not the most patient person." Mrs. Lum prompted.
"Sorry, that was selfish of me. I feel bad for interrupting, and I don't want it to spoil your playful natures." Her arms tightened around us. "Billy came to me yesterday. He was hurting badly on the inside. Something traumatic happened to him and his mother, a couple nights ago."
"Ms. Androni?" Mrs. Lum's eyes fawned at me with sympathy. "I'm so sorry, Billy. I felt your intensity, but I hoped you were pretending. I wish you had said something."
"Caroline isn't trying to add guilt on you." Ms. Laghari explained. "She cares about your true feelings more than she cares about playing your game."
"Yes, thank you, Shoona. I talk too often like a sour old bitch."
I hugged the P.E. teacher closer to me. "I hurt you, Mrs. Lum-" My soft peter still stung from ravaging her dry pussy. "I'm sorry."
"A little rough play can turn me on." She admitted. "Especially when it's you. I would never obligate you to join me at my house on a Monday night. But because I didn't have your company to enjoy last Monday, I unwisely played with you in my office. This is on me."
"Stop trying to steal the blame, you sillies!" Ms. Laghari shook her head. "People make mistakes because we are often too mistaken about the circumstance of our mistake. What's important for our hearts is to mean well and follow its guidance as best we can.
"Now, Billy," She continued. "I said I was here to warn Caroline and yes, about you. You're hurting, and even the most adult person might take a hurt out on someone else. To your credit, playing your game with Caroline was a noble way to vent frustration without wounding her."
"But I hurt her."
"We started the game so quickly, I hadn't time to prepare myself for intercourse." Mrs. Lum explained.
"I'm sorry." I sniffed.
"I knew what would happen, Billy, and I accepted it." She tightened her arm warmly around me. "I worried about hurting you."
I guessed that she had been just pretending to be hurt, or maybe she was expressing real pain as part of playing. Sex games are really complicated! Up until then I thought that the rape game was as simple as games got.
"I have to confess." Ms. Laghari bit her lip. "I'm now glad I interrupted you two. A - because of this." She patted our huddled backs. "But - B - because if you had cum, Billy, your mind might have considered such intense pleasure as a reward for expressing frustration through sex.
A light bulb flashed in my head. That was the same reason I denied Mom's orgasm after winding her arousal up with our story about the awful night with the Tiddens. More logic connected in my young, spinning head. Those stories had been making me horny too! Except my close love for mother suppressed me from noticing. I would regret cumming when Mom couldn't be allowed to! I wanted to help her, not help myself. The voice in my head predicted, "There'll be times when you enjoy yourself at her expense." I argued internally, "But that would be wrong while her heart's still hurting."
Mrs. Lum chuckled at my vapid gape as I mentally wrestled. "If that's not a sign of self-revelation, I'll burn my teaching credentials."
"I have to go!" I pulled out of our huddle and backed up to the door. A last, awful thought had exploded in my brain. What if Mom's pent up sexual frustration caused her to doing something crazy - WITH JUDE!"
The schools harp rang through the building and over the grounds. Students had five minutes to get to their classes.
"BILLY! What's the matter?" Both teachers blurted.
"Please unlock the door!" I wanted to pound it. Instead I tapped frantically on my watch.
Mrs. Lum approached and she held a key up to its lock. "Can you tell us why?"
I looked up from my hasty text message. My eyes bounced between the women's concerned expressions. "Mom is frustrated too." Except I couldn't say that to them. It wasn't their business to know. Only Tanya and Mrs. McDougal knew about the rape, and I wished upon all the stars that the latter didn't. "I need to go home."
My watch alerted me with Mom's reply. "Everything's fine here, Billy. I'll text every hour. Don't skip school."
"I won't stop you, but I will hold you responsible for the class you miss." Mrs. Lum presented the holes in a sleeve. "And for everything related."
"Billy, don't make decisions in a panic. Unless there's an emergency, you should stick to what you planned today." Ms. Laghari was subtly asking if it was an emergency.
It was! - only it was all in my head. Mom sounded fine in her text. Running home for no reason would work against regaining her trust. I would just have to let my jealousy fueled paranoia simmer and try to distract myself with school matters. "You're right." My head drooped. I apologized and went to my first class.
At the end of History, I checked my texts. Mom had sent, "9:43 am, and all is well. :p
In my second class of the day, science, Kelly sat next to me. She wrote a couple notes when Mr. Yong wasn't looking. "Arturio is a wicked brat, but he's probably my best option." Later she wrote, "He is starting to see that he won't get what he wants from me unless he behaves." When class ended, Kelly chuckled, "You should come over to my place some afternoon and see how he's changed."
I immediately worried about her parents, but then I remembered her mother had instigated Kelly's experimenting with sex. I didn't know anything about her father. "I'd like to see that!" I answered, tongue firmly in my cheek. We parted and I checked my watch.
"10:51am. Jude spilled a little milk. RUSH HOME, AND SAVE ME!!!"
I deserved that. Fortunately, her sarcasm helped me to focus on my math book assignment. Working hard for Ms. Hennifer felt really good,. My grades were suffering from all the distractions in my crazy life.
"Billy, I have a note from the office for you." Ms. Hennifer said, when the 'end of period' harp sounded. I waited at my desk while the class filed out, expecting the note to be a ruse. When the room had cleared I locked the door and went to her.
She told me, "I spoke with your mother this morning. I'm relieved that she recanted her request to punish you." She smile and hugged me. Then she handed me a note. "A Ms. Nurhea?" She hummed with curiosity.
I read it.
"For: Billy Androni.
"Msg: Appointment to meet with Ms. Yvonne Nurhea is approved.
"Time: 2pm.
"Location: Meeting room Malala."
I pocketed the note and sighed. Ms. Hennifer changed her tone appropriately. "Would you like to talk about it?"
I shook my head and stepped up to her, face to face. "I love you." I said and reached my hand into her slacks. My math teacher shuddered. "Billy, we can't do this any more. It's starting to affect me in ways I hadn't anticipated."
No doubt the adult teacher, responsible for at least a hundred kids, had enough stress in her life. That she allowed one of them to cum in her panties, when the idea of getting pregnant utterly repelled her, forced me to rethink our arrangement. I considered her trembling voice and body. I reached fingers behind the waistband of her panties. I remembered they were light green, but that's not what I was checking for.
I had ejaculated into her underwear a day ago. My fingers sank into its gooeyness. I wriggled my middle finger against her quivering slit, swiping a glob along its length. Ms. Hennifer surprised me with an abrupt groan. "OOOOhhhhh!!!" She shook for several seconds, as if she'd orgasmed. "Please, we have to stop this."
Astonished that day old cum had made her suddenly cum, I pulled my hand out and looked at the yellowed goop on my fingers. A rank odor reached my nose. "Did you cum, Ms. Hennifer?"
The woman grimaced and nodded. "I don't want this anymore. It's like I'm being tortured in a whole new way. I'm disgusted with myself."
My prick grew strong in my pants at her confession. The voice in my head returned. "You should dump a fresh load to 'sweeten' what the slut is already carrying."
I shook my head. "Thank you for keeping your promise, Ms Hennifer. You can take a shower now. I'm sorry I had to punish you." Yesterday, she had begged me to fill her panties.
I managed to overrule my frustrated penis once again, and simply kissed Ms. Hennifer on her full lips. "Oh, Billy." She sighed. "I'm such a fool when I'm around you."
"No, Ma-am, you're a wonderful teacher." I wiped my fingers with tissues from her desk. I left quickly, so she could have time to shower and eat lunch.
I checked my watch on the way to my locker. "11:48 am, I'm actually surprised by how good I'm feeling. I hope you're in good spirits too."
Fetching my lunch bag I looked forward to eating outside in the sun. My jealousy was starting to fade. Sure, Jude had probably tried to paw Mom's chest, but I doubted she let him get away with anything worse than that. I could afford to be that magnanimous for her sake.
In the courtyard, I found James eating not by himself, but with Trish and Al. "There you are." Trish said it as if I had made her wait unduly.
"Yay, me." I shrugged and sat next to James. He looked nervous as heck. He already had two classmates bullying him. I surmised the eighth graders had been taunting him while they waited.
"Well, have you heard anything about Steve?" Trish launched into an inquisition. "This fat boy said you went to Steve's house last Tuesday. And what's this about a social worker?"
"Why do you still care?" I fired back. "He treated you like junk, and now what, you want to be his girlfriend?" I was so curious about her behavior, I didn't care what she or Al thought.
Trish rose above my rant. "Someday, when you grow up, you'll understand that friends don't just come and go. You have to allow for shit occasionally." She sneered. "But first you would have to actually get a friend."
"That's telling him, Trish." Al grunted a laugh.
My ears burned a little at her reasoning. I guess she liked Steve quite a bit, just not in an intimate relationship way. No wonder Steve was frustrated - the nuances of friendships were lost on him because his father's broken psyche. Steve simply couldn't understand Trish's perspective.
"I doubt Billy knows anything." Trish snorted. She and Al stood up with their trays and disposed the trash on them.
"I didn't mean to tell them." James frowned.
"I know, James." I started eating. Between mouthfuls, I told him. "So, let's walk from school together, this afternoon." I remembered his request.
"Okay, and I won't talk about eggball." His frown relaxed.
Mom's next message just read, "Same same here. How are you?" I replied that I was fine.
I showed my pass to Mrs. Lum before going to English class.
"A Ms. Nurhea, eh?" She hummed with curiosity. "I hope to see you Monday." She didn't smile, but I knew she was teasing me about my options: P.E. class and late night rape.
I didn't show the note to Ms. Laghari during her class. I sat at my desk and worked as hard as I could for her. I owed so much to her wisdom and loving instruction.
"That's good work, Billy." She reviewed my worksheet and moved to the next student.
I felt good about myself, right up until the harp sounded. A beast climbed on out of the dark recess of my consciousness, as I walked away from English. It's voice asked, "Just what WILL you say to Ms. Nurhea about Mom and us?" I wondered if I could actually tell the social worker that Mom was almost raped, and that I had witnessed the attempt. I didn't really know anything about the social worker. How could I trust her with something that disturbing?
Mom's next message helped. "Billy, I'm serious. Sitting for Jude has been a joy. I wish you were still his age and could spend all day with me."
Even though jealousy lurked in the shadows, I also wished I could spend every day with Mom. But I wasn't a kid any more. I was growing up, despite Trish's assertions. Maybe I could talk to Ms. Nurhea about something as difficult as sexual assault.
"Hello, Billy." Ms. Nurhea greeted me in a small room without windows. It was smaller than my parents' bedroom. She sat on the room's one table. She patted the top of. "Sit with me. Chairs are for fuddy-duds." She smiled.
I sat apart from her, but I welcomed her suggestion. "Hi, Ms. Nurhea, I'm sorry I didn't stay to help Steve. I didn't realize he was so messed up."
"That is the official diagnosis, Billy." She grinned then sighed. "It was my responsibility. There's nothing you should feel guilty about. I fucked up."
"What happened?"
She explained with a growing frown. "My goal was to help Steve open up about how his father treated his mother. I didn't realize what a mine field that was for him. He blew up, saying that his mother deserved what his father did to her. I was so shocked I failed to re-take control of the conversation."
I blurted. "Mr. Dinty was really mean to her, and she's so nice!" I wanted to punch Steve a hundred times!
"I'm sure that was the case. Mr. Dinty has been expressing a lot of sorrow for his wife. He doesn't give details but he admits that he treated her most unfairly."
"What did Mrs. Camden, I mean, Mrs. Dinty say?" She would have been part of the session.
Ms. Nurhea's eyes misted over. "That was the worst part!" She sniffed. "Mable stood up for her son. She told me I was an awful counselor, and she commanded me to leave their house!"
A hundred thousand punches wouldn't be enough for Steve. Poor Mrs. Camden! Of course she stood up for him. She loved him more than anyone and would suffer anything for him!
"I'm so sorry!" I was hugging the sad social worker without a thought to.
She wept on my shoulder, "I'm so glad you wanted to talk, Billy. I'm already a mess, because I could say that only to you, since you originally joined in the sessions. Professional confidentiality restricts me from sharing tough sessions like that. I tried talking to my therapist, but her methods are so clinical!"
I let her cry and kissed her cheek a couple times. "You did what you could, Ms. Nurhea." I again wished I had stayed that day but not for Steve's sake, for hers.
Then, before I could react. Ms. Nurhea slipped off the table and stood on her knees before me. "Please, Billy, I need you to control me like you did the first time. I-I can't trust myself like this." She was begging me to speak the words that would unleash her absolute submission, Wrapped in a Bamboo Snake.
My heart and mind expanded with possibilities. If I took control of her, we could talk about anything, specifically about what happened at the Tiddens. Those events would be easy to discuss while she was in an absolutely receptive state of mind. She wouldn't blame me for anything I said or did. Or I could simply do as she asked, and help her with the feelings troubling her. The first time I controlled her she was grateful for my kindness. But I didn't know if Mom or I could wait a whole weekend, to ask for her help.
The room was built for privacy, and we could probably use it until the faculty went home, long after the last class.
My heart was hurting for Ms. Nurhea, regarding Steve's asinine behavior. I wanted to reassure her, in the most loving ways possible, that she had done her best.
However, by the end of my deliberations, my dick had grown quite hard. To utterly control the attractive woman was a big turn on, especially because she was begging me to control her. The voice in my head was surprisingly reasonable. "You need to release what you've been repressing during all those stories. She won't hold you accountable for anything you do to her."
But what was the right thing to do?