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*out of nowhere hugs Ali-chan*
How are you doing? Hope you prepare for your exams properly :D
The bullies were my classmates so it was almost a non-stop nightmare all day everyday...

oh at least you have some machine to work out :D

Yeah it's good to meet someone that experienced the same things but on the other hand it's sad that someone else had to go through all these beside myself :(
Yeah, bullies are pathetic! One time I was walking to school and some guys who were way older than me who I didn't even know, had never seen in my life, drove past in their car, wound down the window and threw oranges at me yelling fatty o.O I was like wtf?!..... idiots ">.>

I'm a bad dieter, I can't afford healthy foods like salad all the time like you say, so I just eat 2 meals a day instead and drink coffee when I'm hungry in between. It's not like I'm starving myself, but my dad says it's not healthy to just have like porridge for breakfast and then toast or soup for dinner >.< I am quite lazy too with working out hehe, I lose motivation reeeeeaaaalllllyyyyy fast and easily xD it helps a bit that my dad bought a rowing machine for our house cos it sorta gives me less excuses to not do it when it's right there haha.

I don't think I'll ever be confident either, I guess I don't really hate myself, I more hate other people for not accepting me, well, I almost don't care anymore I guess, fed up with trying to please other people all my life xD It's nice to talk to people like you who understand and have been through similar things though, it's always nice to know that you're not alone :3
Hmm. bullies are one of the worst persons ever (I can speak of experience in this topic. being driven into thinking of suicide would be better because of them and stuff like that) so i can relate.
Losing weight is something i can't do too. I mean we can't afford eating fish and salad and stuff everyday xD.. and everytime i start working out i just give up i'm too lazy and not really have any motivation :)

Well i'm not a confident person either and i don't think i will ever become one so it's kinda hard for me too...
I'm already deep in that trap haha I've never liked my appearance T_T I was bullied at school not just for liking anime and stuff but because I'm chubby >.< it's not something I can even help! I eat fairly healthily and exercise everyday on the rowing machine, but I don't lose weight because I have an underactive thyroid that isn't being properly treated with meds for years and on top of that I take anti depressant and anxiety meds which my dr said will make me put on weight T_T can't win!!

Yeah I usually try to look for things that I might just be able to wear everyday cos then it's not as much a waste of money, I'm pretty darn poor myself cos I can't work atm cos of my stupid anxiety which means I get almost 0 money. Wish I could wave my hands and magically make me a super confident person haha
Well here it's rare to find someone who likes these kind of stuffs too. And well in school there was one guy (i never really got to be friends with him tho ) he kinda got bullied over it so it's not that accepted thing...
Hmm.... Don't say that you are ugly. Don't fall into the same trap as me(by trap i mean all the self-hatred and stuff)
Then again i don't really have any money to buy things like that at the moment xD ( If i would buy cosplay it would be probably a not too special one (I mean if it's not looking super special or crazy maybe if it's comfortable i can wear it anytime or something xD)
The trouble is there's nothing like that locally T_T I've tried just looking for friends in general in the area who like similar stuff to me, and all of the meet ups have resorted in the guys wanting to date me >.< and if I say no then they just don't wanna know me, like no one is capable of being just friends!! And it makes no sense cos I'm really ugly anyways xD As for cosplay I wouldn't be able to make anything either but I'd just buy something cheap from Ebay cos there's a lot on there haha, it's not like I'd be entering competitions or anything so it shouldn't matter if it's a bought costume if it's only for fun :3
Haha Sure will! (If I get around to talk to them that is, then I will)
So what ya upto?
Yes, Shiki or Shir0. I use both names. Oh, and add your friends to the dicord group. I like to follow conversations.
so i'm not sure you will get this message today but here we go:
as i'm going to sleep(Waking up 2 a.m is taking it's toll on my body xD) I just want to wish you good night and pleasant dreams . Let's talk some more again when you have time :)
There's a app for it on playstore if your phone is android like me~ I'm also using phone and chatting like this is pretty easy and fun~
Oh that sounds like fun :D

Hmm you could always look for a group in your area online or something maybe you find some nice person who would go with you there :D
Well i always wanted to try cosplaying but can't make my own clothes so i never got to do it :(
I love it :3 My family always say I look like a furious hacker when I'm playing it on my tablet cos of tapping the screen so fast and the look of concentration on my face xD

I've been to 1, my dad was kind enough to take me even though he's not into that sorta stuff, that was a very long time ago though. I always watch the coverage and cry as I miss out on all the awesome free stuff that you get just fro attending T_T I really wish I had just 1 friend to go with and to cosplay together haha, that would be a dream come true :3 I don't wanna go on my own cos I have anxiety which is bad if I'm out and about on my own, I just think everyone is talking about me and saying mean things >.< plus I'd probably get lost cos it's in London which means travelling on trains and stuff which I'm not very good at haha.