- May 26, 2012
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GenKiDan, thank you for the advise and information about allergy. It is useful, I have known most of them though because I myself am a Pharmacist, but again thank you so much for the detail explanation :)
renano, thank you so much for all of the advise, and the wise words "I scream for Ice cream", hahaha...,though it is a nice advise words, I still don't get the meaning fully, silly me :)
And I think I should say thank you to every one that support me by posting some reply. Now I know that people can be really care to other people even though we are a all a total stranger, that's beyond my thought but now I see it, all of people that I don't know write some support and advise to me. It feels rather magical for me :)
And about my depression, actually although I said that I think to try committing suicide, I also think it is not something that people need to worry about because I have committed suicide two times before, when I was in high school and when I was in college. Both of them failed though I did it carefully, it is just like..., my body refuse suicide, hahahaha. What all of you think about it? :D
So my family didn't surprised much if I said I will commit suicide. They usually said 'It will fail again, so just throw away that suicide project before you ended up as a cripple or mental asylum new residents'. But for me it is just hard to stop trying to think about it, after all I have live with this 'death by suicide wish' for almost 12 year. The first time I think about it was when I was still in elementary school. I have forgotten what is the cause, but all I remember now is the wish, that may be it is better for me to just disappear. I think like that almost all the time, also when I am happy, the thought is there, and I just can't throw it whatever I try.
So please need not to worry everyone, because I myself is always fully with suicidal thought, but I think it is just the 'normal' me and I will try to live with death-wish in my every breath. After all, that is what I am doing until now ;)
renano, thank you so much for all of the advise, and the wise words "I scream for Ice cream", hahaha...,though it is a nice advise words, I still don't get the meaning fully, silly me :)
And I think I should say thank you to every one that support me by posting some reply. Now I know that people can be really care to other people even though we are a all a total stranger, that's beyond my thought but now I see it, all of people that I don't know write some support and advise to me. It feels rather magical for me :)
And about my depression, actually although I said that I think to try committing suicide, I also think it is not something that people need to worry about because I have committed suicide two times before, when I was in high school and when I was in college. Both of them failed though I did it carefully, it is just like..., my body refuse suicide, hahahaha. What all of you think about it? :D
So my family didn't surprised much if I said I will commit suicide. They usually said 'It will fail again, so just throw away that suicide project before you ended up as a cripple or mental asylum new residents'. But for me it is just hard to stop trying to think about it, after all I have live with this 'death by suicide wish' for almost 12 year. The first time I think about it was when I was still in elementary school. I have forgotten what is the cause, but all I remember now is the wish, that may be it is better for me to just disappear. I think like that almost all the time, also when I am happy, the thought is there, and I just can't throw it whatever I try.
So please need not to worry everyone, because I myself is always fully with suicidal thought, but I think it is just the 'normal' me and I will try to live with death-wish in my every breath. After all, that is what I am doing until now ;)