When do you randomly get sad/depressed?

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm i prefer a free schedule where i can just do stuff at my own pace ;p

 

[dannyh]

The man speaks the truth!

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Well some people like the motivation that a tight schedule gives them... but the stuff i do... i dont like it as much...

 

[dannyh]

But you do have a tight schedule and the motivation....to post in AS!

 

[~SnowAngel~]

It happens to me sometimes too....a min being happy and another being suddenly sad...I think it's because I used up all my energy to be toooo happy or otherwise was trying to be happy and it doesnt really work or draw any attention....I think it's like a bolloon when someone stick a needle in and then suddenly become flattern.

To answer your question earlier [MENTION=8332]samyeung46[/MENTION], THAT's how fragile I am ._. I can't believed I didn't describe it like this before XD.
To give you an idea of how it makes me feel, listen to this.
I mean.. gosh! I'm so fragile a snowflake can make me happy and a candle could make me scared of a fire X_X. We rarely use candles anymore because of that :f Hearing someone yell at someone always makes me feel terrible X_X. I could make the excuse that it's because of my early childhood, but it's more of my personality I'd say.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm candles... i suppose they can be unsettling though they arent exactly scary to me... and snowflake are pretty so happiness is understandable~ Your emotions are just stronger than mines... but mines are usually really neutral so i cant be classified as "normal" anyway...

Hmm spamming isnt really that hard? xD

 

[renano]

As Sam mentioned... your emotions are perhaps a bit higher or more easily disturbed.

That does not make it detrimental, but a slight variation in activity or as you stated 'writing poetry' may help along the way.

Laughing at the little things in life can provide an ease of mind or bring about a smile for less worry or pondering.

 

[~SnowAngel~]

Hmm candles... i suppose they can be unsettling though they arent exactly scary to me...

Long story short, red used to be my absolute favorite color, I loved candles and campfires when I was very young. One night I used a toothpick to light a candle. I put it out by rolling it on dry wax and threw it into a trashcan full of paper. About two minutes later, there were flames reaching the ceiling. When it was over, my father screamed at me saying to never use them again. From the next day on, blue has been my favorite color, and I avoided being around fire. It's not as traumatic now, but it can still unsettle me. :f

Renano, it's a bit mixed of how/when I can be bothered by something. I can compare my emotions with the forms of water. They could be solid, flowy, or really airy. What bothers me one day might not get to me the next. Sometimes nothing helps and I just do what I feel like I should do. What's pretty strange, is the mix of thinker/crazy I have. I can't describe it well, but it's almost like there's two different people inside me X_X. Sometimes that causes problems. :/

(no, I don't have MPD/DID lol)

 

[nawi]

hmm..... i'm not a good counselor..so .i'll just pass it to rena jou-san....

 

[~SnowAngel~]

This is why Ushio is the perfect name for me XD. I have high tides, and low tides full of emotion~
[MENTION=5445]nawi[/MENTION] Simply wanting to help is better than nothing :D I'll let you know a secret about me~

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm i havent really had anything like that happening... still like red and fires are still pretty to me... you sort of know how to properly dispose of flammable objects now so maybe you can come to like fire again? not sure cuz im not you but i believe its possible to overcome the trauma...

Emotional and yet logical? Can you describe how so exactly?

I think ojou sama would make a better councilor than meh xD

 

[~SnowAngel~]

I think ojou sama would make a better councilor than meh xD

Sometimes all I need is a friend who cares that I'm sad/hurt. :)
Advise doesn't fix problems all the time :f

(I might change this later~)

Let's see.. When I'm in the "emotional" state, I think less and act more. If I'm sad/happy, that feeling is what controls my thoughts. I become more creative (hence poetry to understand my feelings), I forget often or pay less attention to what I'm doing. I do things I normally would not do around other people. I can "sense" others' emotions very effectively/accurately (even in pictures). I'm more positive in lots of ways. I'm more willing to do something for someone (and get nothing in return). I'm more talkative. I like brighter colors. I'm carefree in many ways. I look for new things to do. I want to be around other people. I avoid getting hurt as much as possible.

Logical (lock) side: I put deeper thought into what I do. I can focus more on something the longer I stay focused. I'm much more critical/negative. I'm much less vulnerable to words, and less willing to do something for someone. I'm very quiet, and rarely can be bothered. I think/read faster. I notice random details that no one else notices. I prefer darker colors and wearing dark jackets. I have less fear of what others think of me (at that moment). I can do the same thing for a long time. I tend to zone-out while doing something simple (dishes, cleaning, cooking, mowing a lawn, homework). I want to be by myself for a long time. I can't cry at all, even if I wanted to.


How I go from one side to the other, I can't really say for sure. So the best way I describe it is a wave in the ocean. There have been a few times when they clashed, which was usually with extreme sadness.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm your logic side describes me to some degree... so does the emotion side... all depends what the circumstances are... my creativity usually involves quite a lot of logic actually cuz there are methods and whatnot to drawing and painting... i suppose they work together though mood can be quite an influence...

Maybe you can get them to work together instead of clashing though that might just make you neutral to a lot of things like i am...

 

[~SnowAngel~]

The only time when I'm neutral is when I'm sleepy :p Sometimes I just think it's all in my head that I have these two sides of myself. The best way I can put it is with water. I have solid (the logical), water (the neutral) and vapor (the emotional).
I'm sure that anyone could relate to me to some degree. It doesn't have to be as extreme as I put it, but still.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm anything for plasma? xD

Well it doesnt seem too extreme to me actually~ I can understand the reasons for most of it anyhow...

 

[renano]

Very nice analogies... pertaining to water or tides.

I suppose 'Ushio' does suit you well.

Although... perhaps you're over-thinking about it. It's good to sort out how you feel and determine what it is while maintaining both a logical and sentimental side, but thinking too much may exert more 'unpleasing' emotions/moments instead.

Or maybe you're a deep thinker. Thinking deeply and understanding about oneself develops a wise persona while questioning about one's surroundings and how you reflect upon it.

We can 'sense' others if we are more cautious or 'feel' another's aura. That sensitivity is both good and bad in a way. Still, we learn to adapt along the way.

Or I could be all wrong.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

And theres ojou sama~

Hmm switching... is there certain events that may cause the switch? Sometimes unpleasant emotions may cause one to shut themselves off from the world a bit~ Its a way that the mind defends itself... more negative people tend to have a more accurate idea of the worlds than those that are jsut happy all the time...

 

[renano]

I apologize beforehand if my comments so far have come across as unhelpful or the same as any other person who has commented.

The answer could be there all along.

No need to think or look further. Could be near you or inside you this whole time.

Plenty of uncertainties and different people.

 

[~SnowAngel~]

They key to all this mess is somewhere beyond my memory. I can remember being openly free, and being made fun of by other people, even my family. That's partly what made me shut down and think deeply. I search deep within myself, and take my time to give the best I can. I like things that make me question myself, sometimes. There has been times where sensing another's emotions was kinda a bad thing. I'd ask someone a question or say something that hits the nail on the head every time.

"the switch" as I said, isn't completely one thing. For example, I use to be afraid of fire, but now I can handle it. The more of a good experience I have, the less likely something bad will make me switch. (making friends, for example, encourages me to open more knowing that I won't be hurt by them). I do think that there could be parts that won't change, since it's built into my personality to react that way. The most noticeable one is any kind of rejection, whether or not it's directed to me. (ex: a friend doesn't talk to me; a mod locking a thread, words of criticism, a person forgetting to do what I asked, etc. etc.) I do think it can be helped a little, ever since I've told a friend about this. I plan to have a few counseling sessions this semester. I'd need to be stable if I'm wanting to be one after all. :p

As far as tides, I do think they're a necessary part of me. They're usually not bad. Most of what I can remember most clearly is at those "high tide" moments. I've learned to somehow control a mix that I need, but it's nowhere near as powerful. The thing is, this "mixed" state can also be considered a tide, since I can't keep it up all the time. One thing I could say, sometimes a certain tide may last longer depending on the season. I notice this especially around winter. (which reminds me, that fire was around the beginning of December??) It's usually a warm kind of feeling though, but sometimes lonely. I love winter, so think nothing bad of it :P

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm high school probably made my quiet personality grow quite a bit... friend's jokes and stuff which sort of stung quite a bit even though i knew they were only jokes and nothing more... >.< Also might have roots in various parts of my childhood... and that incident my mom caused had quite an impact... mehs not that i really dislike my outward personality atm but it is quite very defensive... not as carefree as i once was though i suppose that my carefree personality is shown more strongly online... well at least some decent things came out of this anyhow...

Hmm counseling~ Hope it helps~ Is there any way to twist rejection to something more positive or maybe which you can pass off as minor and ignore?

Well even if the mixed tide isnt as powerful it is more useful isnt it? or so it seems from how you talk... strong tides might be too much for certain situations~

 

[Mato]

Hmm That's something I got to..Well maybe diffrent I dont get sad but all my emotions go away...and I dont feel a thing...
It normally happens when you know something won't go right or someone hurted you...or your doing something and nobody wants to help you...

 

[Decalcomania]

Hmm That's something I got to..Well maybe diffrent I dont get sad but all my emotions go away...and I dont feel a thing...
It normally happens when you know something won't go right or someone hurted you...or your doing something and nobody wants to help you...

Story of my life.

 

[~SnowAngel~]

Hmm counseling~ Hope it helps~ Is there any way to twist rejection to something more positive or maybe which you can pass off as minor and ignore?

Well even if the mixed tide isnt as powerful it is more useful isnt it? or so it seems from how you talk... strong tides might be too much for certain situations~

The level of how much a rejection bothers me depends on how bad it is. For example, the day when my friend left without saying anything really bothered me, but I got over it quickly once it didn't matter. If something is unresolved, the feelings can grow but at some point be put into a bottle. Sometimes they'll get worse in a bottle, sometimes they'll get better.

I can't really twist reality, since I'd rather not lie about myself. I can ignore something sometimes, it just depends on if I'm prepared to hear something.

Mixed tides aren't any more useful than the other ones. They're just that, another tide. A strong tide isn't always a bad thing, it's usually what I need and is pretty much normal. Think of it this way: the ocean always has different high and low tides, and very rarely has tsunamis. What would be bad is if I tried to fight the tide, and force it to stay a certain way. Therefore, a mixed tide should come and go only when it does~

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Hmm bottle... should probably release it if it starts getting worse... just find some way like rants or whatever other things...

Its more of looking at it from a different perspective... the same thing presented differently can get very different reactions...

So the tides arent really controlled by you? Unless you try but that doesnt turn out well... Well i guess thats just sort of normal... people change all the time~

 

[egozi44]

Too much to say on this matter