When do you randomly get sad/depressed?

[Ghost Kitty~]

When its late and i have to wake early tmr?

 

[~SnowAngel~]

I can't completely explain or express how I've felt lately, but I will mention what's been going on. I really don't want responses to this, since I'm not asking for them.. I'm fine if you can relate, but please don't pretend to really know what I need. I know people probably have more to deal with than I do, but please know that I am not you.
anyway.. this semester was very difficult to keep up with, and put more stress on me than you could imagine. I can't put every detail about it since I don't remember via lack of sleep.
September, everything seemed fine until assignments were given. Doing the assignments took about the same time if not more time than reading the chapters I needed to. We go through a chapter per week, some classes have a chapter per day. With the way classes are given, it seems like I learn more from my notes and doing things myself than listening to someone talk.
These are my classes: Chemistry 103 (for majors) with lab, German 101, political science 101, psychology 204 childhood development. You'd think that I'd have nothing to worry about, and so did I. The biggest problems I had was understanding the teacher or curriculum, staying focused, and knowing when to do what. I'm horrible at time and juggling tasks. I do the work, I read, and yet this is probably the worst situation I've been in school. Yes, I'm making changes to do better.
For chemistry, my teacher is fast, gives difficult quizzes and tests, and apparently likes to keep us longer than he's allowed to. He tries to do too much in class, but he's still a nice guy. The book we're using tries to make understanding simple, but often is confusing to me. We also have an online homework thing that went down for 10 days and put us behind. He said most of the quizzes would be based on that homework, which we were not allowed to do until certain days. When I read chemistry, I can't simply memorize. I have to practice to learn, for anything. There's very few problems to work out in the book, and the extra ones don't have solutions given. The chapters are around 50-100 pages. He gives us maybe 100+ per week to read and understand, plus most of us are not sure what he'll quiz us on unless he tells us.
Next is German. My teacher likes to use "the communication approach" for teaching. The book we have is made where you have to basically guess what means what in German, and is made for a classroom. It assumes that each person will have at least 2 friends in class, which I really don't have. If there's an explanation given, it's usually not enough. They'll give the explanation, and give you sentences to practice with, without answers. Learning in class seems a bit random, and it seems like the teacher doesn't really know the best way to teach. We have online homework, which is mainly for practice that can help. Still, there is definitely something wrong with this curriculum. When we had the first test, half of the class failed. Several of them did study, but didn't understand. Same with the Chemistry class, and the psc class. People did study, often at the last minute, and could not do very well. Of those first tests, I only passed the German test. Here's why: The chemistry test had 18 questions. 10 multiple choice, and 5 out of 8 problem solving which I didn't have enough time to finish. A third of the other students agreed. Even though we studied, we didn't have nearly enough time to finish them. My psy test was 30 multiple choice, scored at 3 points per question with a 10 point grade scale. Most of the class got B's. The teacher in psc had 20 MC, 5 or so short answer, and 1 of 2 essays. Most of the class, even the A grade ones had trouble with the MC questions. The biggest problem was the essay. If there was the written answers. If there was any room for improvement, she would heavily take away points.
These are just about 1/4th of what I've been though so far.

For chem lab this week, my lab partner decided to join some other pair without notice, consent, or anything. The reason was because I simply could not keep up with the speed of everyone else. Even if I came prepared I was slow. I was very self-conscious around him too... Often I'd not be having a good day with the pressure from the other classes along with other assignments, etc. on my mind, some I won't mention. I did feel bad for being dead weight for him, I tried my best to be as helpful as I could.. I tried talking to the teacher about it, she couldn't understand what I've been through.. (the extra i won't mention). It really made me cry.. even during psy class it was hard to keep myself together. I have been getting better somewhat, but everything else still bothers me :f

What's really been bugging me is when everyone is saying everything is my fault, without even asking how I'm doing or offering to help.. do I really need to be reminded of what I already know? It's one thing when I'm against myself for being like this.. it's too much when people just blindly tell me things that are wrong, and offer no solution. It's like a doctor saying "you got cancer, fix it yourself". really... everything has pushed me to the point of just wanting to die.. It scares me to think like that, but that's really where I'd be headed if people keep this up.. two words of encouragement helps me do better than two pages of criticism.
so yea... that's not the whole story, but it's certainly enough to make me cry several times a day/night x_x

 

[Monjster]

Well right now Ill sound cruel but that's the way it is:

Firstly I havent read evertyhing I skipped those parts where u talk about subject and just skimmed through them.

Yeah I cant know how is it to you right now but there are few things I must tell you. FIrstly, u chose that school yourself, and with taht u accepted the chalenge. U can't expect anyone's help there. Professors have many students, so expecting them to help every single one of them is impossible, it also goes with your firiend/school mates, they have their own problems.
No one can do anything for you. As I said I dont know how hard it is but it's just another life test.
Now is the situation like they say "nut up or shut up" lol.
But as u made this post not to get the reply my main message for u is to stay strong and bite, bite hard (dont blame for words I used I am in the middle of watching Wolf's rain xD) if u suceed itll get easier for you and u will feel so much better about yourself.

Good luck!

 

[thecoins]

wow both of you.... that's a long post. basically for me, i really sad when i fail my test because i can't answer a question that turns out very easy

 

[~SnowAngel~]

really...shallow..

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Well... sounds like a situation similar to a friend of mine >.< Well... except that she has about 6 classes... too much work :x
Teachers... technically they should help... go to their office hours? That usually shows them that you care and stuff... :x They usually arent actually visited by students... or so the teachers here say... might help you with problems...

 

[~SnowAngel~]

they're all good people and teachers, I just learn differently really :f public schoolers are typically taught to just study for the test, and they forget the next week what they read. They work fast, but the quality is low. I was taught to take time and apply what I read, and be sure to understand it so I learn something. It also takes me more than an hour to get into something. Once I get into the subject deeper, I'll do really well. The problem with that is whether or not I can stay focus. If there's anything worrying me, it will find its way into my thoughts :f
Weekends usually work well for studying, but my body also forces me to relax and recover. I really don't know what to expect since I'm partially anemic, which can be serious sometimes or not bother me.
One major issues for me is emotional support, which really matters more than people realize.

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Well... yeah... going fast wouldnt help in terms of students remembering something... :x
Anemic? How does that affect you?
Emotional support... well thats somewhat difficult to obtain... for certain people... at least it is for me...

 

[Monjster]

Shallow? No, just real....

 

[~SnowAngel~]

Anemic? How does that affect you?

Sometimes in the middle of class or even at home I'll suddenly not be able to breathe right. It's usually when my back is against something for so long. Then there's the odd physical thing where I'll stay out of breath anywhere from 20 mins to a few hours, which usually happens from moving too much.


being unsupportive, unconcerned or unwilling to understand a friend is shallow.. more than a shadow. If you actually read what's there, you'd notice that I already heard enough of that from ppl. try to understand that I am completely different, and cannot be helped in ways pretty much everyone thinks is what i need. if it works for them, great, but that doesn't mean it'll help me.
I think of real as understanding the person and being on their level. simply telling me "how it is" would make me rather die. it's not because i don't already know, it's because there isn't a person in the world who cares enough to even try to help...
I don't need advice, a beating, or insincere help. I just want a person who will just listen... that's the biggest thing every girl wants, but it's so hard for guys to truly understand that :(

 

[Ghost Kitty~]

Out of breath... So i guess that doesnt help with concentration in class and stuff? :x

Help... well... this isnt really in my area of expertise to i cant do much... but ill listen... maybe ill learn something so i can help others in the future...

 

[Killer cell]

When i don't submit my homework on time and get punishment from my teacher:(

 

[chiru]

When it's time of sunrise and sunset *hiding from the sun like crazy

 

[Anayomex]

What do you mean randomly, aren't you usually know beforehand and get depressed example: if you fail exam you obviously will be depressed